A very Special person

ok, this is something thats not easy for me to write but cos of all the hoax sites and posts on forums etc I thought it was time to share with you all something which I rarely speak about.

As many of you know Ive travelled alot to see Michael and been close to him many times. There is one thing about being close to Michael and meeting him that most fans rarely talk about, and that is his aura. Ok you might think Ive lost the plot, but just read the rest of what I have to say.

There was something magical about Michael, something unexplainable. Whenever you were close to him, you could feel his presence. The first time I was close to him, looked into his eyes, I just felt this amazing air of peacefulness and innocence.

Everyone felt it, this magic in the air. It was how we always just knew whenever we heard ” Michael is in London” whether it was just or rumour or whether he was really here.

The same at Neverland. Even when he was not living there, there was still magic in the air.

Even if he hadnt been spotted in a few weeks, like when he was hiding in Behrain, or in Ireland, I could still feel that he was somewhere on this earth.

On the 25th June, I knew something was wrong as soon as I got the text. And as the minutes went by and I heard that he was at the hospital, I could feel the magic disapearing. It was like a vacum, sucking the air out, sucking out Michaels magical air from this world.

Thats how I know he is not alive, his aura is not on earth any more.

When we back to Neverland in July, everyone could feel the difference in the air. A fan who I had never spoken to before, but who recognised me, told me “the magic is gone from the air at Neverland”

The last time we felt the magic, that something different in the air, was inside Staples Centre at the Memorial.

My Day at Court Nov21 pt3

Part 3

John Joseph Barnes Jr is a music producer and C.E.O of INNER SOUND Inc California

He has worked for Michael since 1983

He was recommended by Jermaine and asked by Micheal to come to Bahrain and work on The Katrina song. Before he left California Michael asked him to make an inventory of recordings stored in a warehouse, with a view to shipping them to Bahrain.

According to his witness statement as of 2 July 2008 is is still the HEAD OF CREATIVE AT 2 SEA’S

Asked what the non exsistant company of 2 Seas’s has done since June 2006, when Michael left Bahrain he answered

– developed writers in LA

– inventoried previous recordings

– preparing to release new products in 2009

Under further questioning it was revealed he was actully emplyed by the Sheik

ENGLEHART ” Are you telling us there is no comapy called 2 sea’s?

BARNES ” Im not involved in legal matters

Some interesting info

David Foster wrote the music for the Katrina song, which was never refered to by name, only as “the Katrina song”

The questioning then turned to the expenses involved in the Katrina project and list of payments was discussed. It came out that INNER SOUND was paid a large sum of money but there are no invoices to show exactly what this money was used for.

Oh and guess what, it came out though questioning that ….. John Barnes brother is the Sheiks US lawyer and has also been attening this case!!

There was also a descrepency about the vocal that Michael had recorded for the song. The Sheik was telling the world that Michael sounded brillant, when in actual fact John Barnes who has worked for Michael for over 20 years and has heard him sing more times than anyone in this court thought Michael’s voice was at that time only 65% to 70% of the force it usully is

His current position is that he is still employed by the Sheik and that the recording studio is still in use and that he has high hopes for many things from there in the future.

that was the end of his testimony

Just before the Judge left he asked the lawyers for a copy of Guy Holmes passport

My Day at Court nov 21 2008 pt2

MY DAY AT COURT PART 2

Next up was Mark Stewart

He is a personal friend of the Sheik and is the film maker who was making the Katrina video.

According to him, the Sheik arranged for the hire of the recording studio in London and for every one involved, artists, studio crew etc to stay at The Dorchester Hotel

Very little footage was filmed. He was paid $300 thousand and he said this was a very realitic figure, considering the amount, and quality of the equipment and experience of the camera cre used

He was the one who introduced Guy Holmes to the Sheik as he knew Guy Holmes was very experienced in the entertainment industy and he wanted the Sheik to talk to someone who knows the industry.

Michael wanted to be very involved with the filming

MARK STEWART ” Michael said ” I’ll be over your shoulder telling you what I want“.”

When asked why there was soo little footage, he blamed Michael. He said that Micheal either didnt turn up to the studio when he was supposed to or when he did turn up didnt want to be filmed that day.

Im sorry this one is so short, I think I must have lost concentration for a bit. Thats all the notes I have.

Next up is John Joseph Barnes Jr

My Day at Court Nov 21 2008 pt1

Back in November 2008, Michael was taken to court in London by the Sheik of Bahrain and I was able to go and sit in the public gallery and observe the proceedings


MY DAY AT COURT

Just back from The Royal Courts of Justice and trying to make sense of my notes. I apologise in advance if some things dont make sense, as I was trying to follow what was being said and write at the same time.

Anything in BOLD are direct quotes from either the lawers, judge or witness’s. Every thing else is sumerised from my notes

I had planned to go to the entire day but could only go to the afternoon session.

When I entered the court just before 2 pm, Guy Holmes was sitting in the witness box, and when the court resumed they continued with his testomy from the morning.

During the morning session Guy Holmes diary was being used as evidence and Michael’s lawyer Robert Englehart continued questioning Guy about this.

Then the questioning turned to THE COMBINED RIGHTS AGREEMENT.

GUY HOLMES Once I joined 2 SEA’S Im learned about a written agreement called The Combined Rights Agreement” He is certain he say this agreement, which had Michael’s signature on it, but not the Sheiks. He said he believed it was a finished document. When asked by by Englehart, does Michael have a copy, do you have a copy, does the Sheik have a copy, he answered no to all.

After further questioning it comes to light that the document Guy Holmes saw was a draft. He apparently sent this draft to Michael’s residence in Bahrain by courier but there is no record of this as he dosnt have a receipt.

By this stage Guy Holmes was getting a bit rattled and flustered by the questioning. Englehart then started breaking down what Michael was expected to do under the terms of the agreement. This included him being tied to 2 SEAS for 6 years during which time he would record an album, write an autobiography and produce a stage play.

Further questioning about the “draft” that was supposedly sent to Michael for him to sign. It was sent to him with no cover letter and even though it was a draft of a contract written up under English Law, no one familar with English Law actully went though it with him.

Guy Holmes also helped organise the phographer who took the photo of Michael signing the contact with the Sheik. Under questioning it come out that Michael thought this photo was just for show as he hadnt actully signed a proper contract but the Sheik wanted the world to think Michael had actully signed to 2 SEAS.

Then the questioning turned to how the figure of 7 million was calculated. It was a guestimate of apporox how much had been spend at that stage during one of their meetings. Guy Holmes first suggested 5 million but between Michael , the Sheik and Guy, they all agreed on 7 million.

GUY HOLMES “I learned some days after the Agreement was signed that it was not an incorperated company

GUY HOLMES “Michael had no interest in the coperate structure of the company and only talked about his music and vision, he trusted the Sheik and Guy to look after things and make sure everything was ok

After Michael signed this agreement there was still work to do with this company, settling the structure. Guy Holmes was under the impression that the company was formed, was told by the Sheik it was but in actul fact the comapany didnt exsist and never has.

JUDGE SWEENEY ” Did you tell Michael Jackson he had signed a contract with a company that didnt exsist

GUY HOLMES ” No

Then the questioning turned to the fact the for a time Guy Holmes was Michael’s manager and what other things he took care of.

Guy Holmes explained that when he took over as Michael’s manager, his buisness affairs where in chaos.
There were 27 major litagation case’s, about 20 million in unsecured debt, deposions that Michael had to give, Judges passing orders that Michael need to be present at, possible bankrupcy, too many things to remember off hand. He said as soon as word got out that he was Michael’s manager, that his phone never stopped with people trying to contact Michael.

During his time as Michael’s manager he went to Vegas and met with the Circ du Soli people with a view of Michael working with them to put on a show somewhere. He also met up with J. K Rowlings agent and heads of record companies.

After a few more questions he finished his testomony. Before he left the witness stand, Judge Sweeny asked his for a copy of his passport to verify his dates of travel to Bahrain and Vegas. Guy Holmes said that that was not possible as he had a new passport and didnt keep the old one.

Ok thats the end of the first part, next up is Mark Stewart

Farther Along


Farther Along
Words and Music by J.R.Baxter and W.B.Stevens
© 1937 Stamps-Baxter Music




Tempted and tried, we’re oft made to wonder

Why it should be thus all the day long,

While there are others living about us,

Never molested, though in the wrong.

            Refrain
            Farther along we’ll know all about it,
            Farther along we’ll understand why;
            Cheer up my brother, live in the sunshine,
            We’ll understand it all by and by.

          When death has come and taken our loved ones,
          It leaves our home so lonely and drear,
          Then do we wonder why others prosper
          Living so wicked year after year.

            Refrain
            Farther along we’ll know all about it,
            Farther along we’ll understand why;
            Cheer up my brother, live in the sunshine,
            We’ll understand it all by and by.

          Faithful til death, said our loving Master
          A few more days to labor and wait,
          Toils of the road will then seem as nothing
          As we sweep through the beautiful gate.

            Refrain
            Farther along we’ll know all about it,
            Farther along we’ll understand why;
            Cheer up my brother, live in the sunshine,
            We’ll understand it all by and by.

          When we see Jesus, coming in glory,
          When He comes from His home in the sky,
          Then we shall meet Him in that bright mansion,
          We’ll understand it all by and by.

            Refrain
            Farther along we’ll know all about it,
            Farther along we’ll understand why;
            Cheer up my brother, live in the sunshine,
            We’ll understand it all by and by.

dreaming of you

just woke up, this might not make sense…..


at hotel, sooo many fans, international fans and Uk fans, faces from the past and present….. everyone happy and excited, waiting for Michael…… buzz of laughter, chants…… the side door opens, Michael comes out riding a bicycle…. everyone is stunned…. no one moves, make a space to let him through….. he rides away, off down the road…. everyone stays at the hotel waving goodbye….. when he is gone, everyone starts saying goodbye, hugging each other…….

I just want you to know who I am……

IRIS by The GOO GOO DOLLS


Verse 1

And I’d give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now
Verse 2

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t want to miss you tonight
Chorus

And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Verse 3

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

Chorus

And I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Chorus

I don’t want the world to see me
Cause I don’t think that they’d understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

why?

If June 25 hadnt happened and Michael came to London and the concerts went ahead, would you have joined this site? Would you have just contined as you were? Would you be as active in the fan community as you are now? Would you have felt the need to connect with fans around the world? Why did it have to take losing Michael for you to come here?

I try to understand, but sometimes it hurts too much….
I know what its like to have no one in real life understand, for over 10 years, no one I knew in real life understand my love for Michael, so most of the time I kept it inside, I was that weird child at school sat alone who no one talked to, I was that lonely child day fater day alone listening to Michael…
I grew up watching the concerts and behind the scenes documentries, seeing the fans be with Michael, wishing deep in my soul I could be there too, wanting with all my heart to be around people like me…..

back then all we had were fan magazines, I can still remember the most amazing feeling of finding a fan magazine in my local shop, and all I ever wanted to do was talk to real fans like me….
Thats whats soo wonderful about the internet, all the fan sites and forums, and the knowledge that you can talk to others out there like you….

Thats what hurts soo much, the fact that for over 10 years, since the interent started, there have been fan sites and forums, that fans have built communites and stood shoulder to shoulder in the pure magic of times like History tour and the MSG concerts and in the darkest times like in 2004 and 2005.

It hurts soo much, you can not even grasp, that it took losing Michael, for soo many to find the fan communites…..

Back in August 2007, a UK fan site organised a fan event in a large venue in central London, appros 1,000 people capacity. Navi and many other MJ performers were there, yet they barely sold 200 tickets and the next year in 2008, they held the same event in a suburb of London, in a pub which a capaicty for 100 people! Yet in January 2010, the first MJ event since losing Michael, over 1,000 people attend an event at The O2!!

In Limbo….

am I the only one still in deep depression and grief?? am I the only one not healing?? am I the only one not coming to terms with whats happened??? It feels like the majority of fans have healed, have moved on, are done with grieving….. it seems like the general feeling is now, Michael is gone, lets celebrate his legacy…. I cant, whats there to celebrate…. dont you get it…. hes gone…… the excitement over the film…… it should be excitement about seeing it in real life, not on a cinema screen…..