why do I continue being involved in the fan community, why do I support projects and offer advice only for it to be thrown back in my face. A project which I cared deeply about and affected me personally has now come crashing down, and I get the feeling that Im being accused of wanting to take over and become the “leader” when all I did was offer advice and suggestions.Is it any wonder I find it hard to trust people, that I dont get involved in many fan projects and events, because when I do I just get hurt….