ok, this is something thats not easy for me to write but cos of all the hoax sites and posts on forums etc I thought it was time to share with you all something which I rarely speak about.

As many of you know Ive travelled alot to see Michael and been close to him many times. There is one thing about being close to Michael and meeting him that most fans rarely talk about, and that is his aura. Ok you might think Ive lost the plot, but just read the rest of what I have to say.

There was something magical about Michael, something unexplainable. Whenever you were close to him, you could feel his presence. The first time I was close to him, looked into his eyes, I just felt this amazing air of peacefulness and innocence.

Everyone felt it, this magic in the air. It was how we always just knew whenever we heard ” Michael is in London” whether it was just or rumour or whether he was really here.

The same at Neverland. Even when he was not living there, there was still magic in the air.

Even if he hadnt been spotted in a few weeks, like when he was hiding in Behrain, or in Ireland, I could still feel that he was somewhere on this earth.

On the 25th June, I knew something was wrong as soon as I got the text. And as the minutes went by and I heard that he was at the hospital, I could feel the magic disapearing. It was like a vacum, sucking the air out, sucking out Michaels magical air from this world.

Thats how I know he is not alive, his aura is not on earth any more.

When we back to Neverland in July, everyone could feel the difference in the air. A fan who I had never spoken to before, but who recognised me, told me “the magic is gone from the air at Neverland”

The last time we felt the magic, that something different in the air, was inside Staples Centre at the Memorial.