ok, 12 hours till Im on a plane heading to LA, to go somewhere I dont want to go, but I know I have to go. The day Ive been blocking out, the day I dread facing has come around. The memories of that night never go away, the pain so deep I’ve never felt before. For 12 months Ive keep the pain hidden away, locked deep inside of me, cos Im scared of what will happen when I let it out. That day is now here, when I must walk up the road and through those gates and face the reality.
I know exactly how you felt as I was feeling this way myself. I didn’t want to go to F/L because I knew deep within me the emotion would rise out and I didn’t wish to display it. But we both did it and yes the tears fell…It was surely a reality check.