I cant bear this… it cant be real… please someone tell me its just a nightmare… I cant take this pain, this blackness, this emptyness…. please someone tell me he is still on this earth somewhere…… it hurts too much…. I need it to end….
did it really happen to me… a lonely child, with no friends… from an crime stricken, poverty trap of a suburb……did I really get close to the most famous person who ever lived… did he really recognise me… was I really in his house…. how did I go from watching him on tv to having him look into my eyes and hold my hand…. would any one believe my stories…. was it all a dream…..