I want my life back. I want to be able to listen to music and not cry. I want to feel the freedom of going to a concert and screaming and dancing till I loose my voice and my muscles ache. I want to go to forums and have fun and feel like I have something in common with the active posters. I want to recieve a text message that send my heart spinning cos I know Im going to see Michael in a few hours. I want this emptyness and blackness in my soul to go away. I want to be happy and free.