Dear Michael Jackson

As we have just seen on TMZ, “supporters” of Murray are planning to go to the court on June 14. For those who dont remember, in Santa Maria, there were alot of “anti” Michael supporters at the court. One of the most “infamous” was the “these are my private parts” lady, protesting against peodophilla in general, as well as many many demonstraters who believed Michael was guilty. Outside the court there was alot of agro betwen MJ fans and all the haters. It did get nasty, and there was alot of shouting.

All thats going to happen again, and at each court appearance it will get worse. Be prepared for all sorts of crap to be in the media, and for them to twist words and actions and make the fans look like crazy people.

We got though it in Santa Maria, we can do the same in LA

As the the days go by and the court case gets nearer, the reality of whats happening sets in. Exactly 5 years ago on 2 April 2005, I was in Santa Maria.

That was something I never expected to do. I grow up loving Michael, watching him on tv, going to concerts and events, seeing him in real life, and all the magical memories. Then suddenly I find myself on a plane, on my own, flying halfway around the world, to see Michael in court……

Being in the UK, I felt soo soo isolated. The UK is 8 hours behind LA, so everyday when Michael arrived in court it was around 4pm where I lived. Everyday, at 4pm, I would start shaking, my heart beating, and I wouldnt be able to concentrate at work.

The forums were a lifeline, but at the same time, I just knew I had to go to Santa Maria, and just be there. Going to Santa Maria, I had no expectations, all I wanted to do was just be there and see Michael get out of the car and see fans outside the court and know he was not alone.

Being there was heartbreaking, seeing all the media circus, knowing that Michael was inside that building, fighting for his life…….

Then on Friday 1 April, I got a ticket for the public seats.

It was all very surreal, all the formalities before hand, signing the forms and getting the official court ID sticker.

Walking into the court was one of the hardest things Ive ever done….. Walking through the same security scanner that Michael walks though every day, going into the court, seeing the Jury seats, the Judges table, I just couldnt believe that it was real, that it was really happening…

How could this be, that instead of seeing Michael onstage, I was about to see him in a court, with the very real possibilty that this could be the last time I ever saw him….

Sitting in my chair at the back of the court, my stomach was churning, it felt so so wrong, why was this happening……

As the court started to fill up, an older man in a suit walked past me, to a seat at the front. Omg, my stomach heaved…. it was Tom Snedden……..

Then suddenly, I looked up, and there was Michael, standing in the doorway, right across from me….

That image haunts me, seeing him standing there, soo soo thin, soo soo zoned out,…. even know as I write this, the tears are flowing, I just couldnt believe that this was happening, that it was real, that I was sitting in the court in Santa Maria……

But seeing Michael, seeing how strong he was, seeing the pain on Katherines face, seeing the Jacksons together, fighting and not giving up jolted me back to reality.

If They could do this, day after day, if Michael could sit there day after day and have his entire life brought into public knowledge, then I could.

No matter how much pain I was in, no matter how it hurt me to be there, it was nothing compared to what they were going though.

To all those in LA right now, preparing to go to court on June 14, stay strong. Yes its heartbreaking, yes its tough. You think that what you are doing is nothing, that what you are doing wont make a difference. Dont worry, thats what we felt back in 2004 /2005. Think of all of us around the world, who cant be there, yet feel the pain and heartache just as much as you. Think of it like a jigsaw, little pieces come together to make a big picture…..

Know that now, just like back in Santa Maria, The Jacksons know that they have the fans support, and thats all that matters.

March 01 : In an interview to hollywood.tv, Christian Audigier reveals that Michael is about to go to London to give a press conference next march 05 in order to announce a new tour next summer!

March 03 : Michael lands via private jet of Harrod’s owner Mohammed Al-Fayeds at Luton Airport, London around 2pm with Prince, Paris, Blanket and manager Dr Tohme Tohme.
They check in the hoyel Lanesborough, Park Lane.

March 04 : MJJ Productions, file a lawsuit in Los Angeles Superior Court on against Julien’s Auction House. It claims founder Darren Julien promised to send Michael an inventory of sale items, but that the singer hasn’t given permission to move them all.

The suit claims many of the items are “priceless and irreplaceable” and describes the attempt to sell them as “malicious, fraudulent, extreme, outrageous and without any legal justification whatsoever.”

MJJ Productions authorized the auction house to remove the items from Jackson’s Neverland Ranch, according to court documents, but not to sell them without Jackson’s permission.

March 05 : Michael announces his last concerts in London beginning on July 08 during a short press conference at the O2 Arena. The event named “This Is It” .

The touring deal with concert promoter AEG Live was arranged by a Colony Capital associate Dr Tohme Tohme who has been Michael’s manager and president of MJJ Productions for a year.
As part of the deal, AEG’s corporate parent, Anschutz Corp., agreed to invest in a pet project of Mr. Jackson’s, a 3-D feature film based on his song and music video “Thriller.”
People close to the singer say that he is eager to return to work. “Between Anschutz and us, he’s got plenty of capital,” said Tom Barrack, Colony’s chief executive. “He’s serious, he’s focused, he’s healthy and he’s listening.”
To obtain insurance for the tour, AEG arranged for an independent physician to conduct a five-hour physical exam of Mr. Jackson. “He passed with flying colors,” said AEG’s Mr. Phillips.
“For the first time in his life, Michael Jackson has people around him who believe in him and look after him,” said Dr. Tohme. “And are trying to help him and advance his career.”

March 06 : Michael goes to see the musical “Oliver” at the Royal Theatre in London with Prince, Paris, Blanket as well as Mark Lester and his children Lucy, Harriet, Olivia & Felix.

March 08 : Michael and his entourage fly back to Los Angeles.

March 11 : Pre-sale begins on Ticketmaster for Michael’s concerts. 40 dates are added.

Michael goes shopping in L.A.

March 13 : Tickets for Michael’s 50 live dates at London’s O2 arena sell out within 4 hours on Ticketmaster!

March 19 : Michael goes to see Dr Klein in Beverly Hills.

March 23 : Michael goes to his doctor’s in Beverly Hills with Blanket.

On Monday April 4 2005, my dream cam true and I spent a magical few hours inside Neverland with Michael and his beautiful family. It was the Day Of The Roses of Love Project.

This was a project organised by fans in Santa Maria as a way of showing Michael that the whole world was supporting him, not just the ones who were acatually in Santa Maria.

A paypal account was created and fans around the world sent money to buy a Rose for Michael.

On The day, there were seven huge baskets of roses as well as individual flowers.

Michael was soo overwhelmed by the gifts of the roses, that he invited all the fans there that day, about 60 of us, to spend some time with him in his home.

It was totally unexpected, totally unplanned and totally magical.

It was the most amazing experience of my life. All we wanted to do was to make Michael smile, and feel the support of the fans around the world and we got something so precious in return.

Being at Neverland that day, being welcomed by Michael into his home, is something I will never forget.

After Micheal had been presented with the roses at the main gate and gone into Neverland, we were all just in a group outside the main gates. Every was soo happy and it was such a lovely atmosphere.

Then the unexpected happened. Securiity were talking in a group and then they opened the gates and came out to talk to us. Every one was surprised and didnt know what was going on. The guard said that no one was to leave yet as there was something else. We just were in shock, what else could happen. Then he got a call on the radio and told everyone to be quite as he had something to tell us. My heart was just beating soo fast, what was he going to tell us. When it was finally quite, he said that we were all being invited inside, and to go back to our cars and to drive inside to the main carpark.

OOOOOOOMGGGGGGGG everyone just started screaming and crying. I just stood there in shock, shaking with tears rolling down my face. I just remember hugging my friend soo tightly, while both of us were crying. Everyone was crying, mothers with young children, even all the guys, it was just soo overwhelming, the shock, the joy, the excitement, the unbelievableness of it, the fact that we had all dremed of being inside but never dared hope it would happen to us.

It took us about 10 minutes, maybe more, to compose ourselves and move away from the gates back to our cars.

Going though those brown gates, and actaully into the property, seeing for the first time what is not visable from the main entrance, is something indescribable.

My heart was beating soo soo fast but at the same time, I tried to remain calm, to really take in everything and try to remember as much as I could.